.Sunday, February 17, 2008 ' 6:50 AM Y
hey ya all. im gna rant about how life sux now yea so for all e faint-hearted its STRONGLY nt advised fer u to scroll dwn...OWN DISCRETION ADVISED
First n foremost, i didnt turn up fer OLC cos i was SICK. wth man of all time why now? I went to e doc on fri nite. She told me im quite a serious case cos my cough is prolonged (arnd 1mth alr n ive been 2 the doc thrice...tis is e 4th) n so e mor i cough...my airways gt clogged mor n mor. E doc was quite nice cos she explained clearly to me my condition n she arranged an appointment fer me....if i dun gt any better on fri i'll hav to go fer a chest X-ray. Damn...i feel super freakin pissed wif myself cos i totally pangseh my grp. More than that...i feel super weak n had been slpin n slpin n slpin fer the past days. my appetite sux n i feel so lost n confused n i dun wna gt out of my bed to do ANYTHING. i feel lyk im so useless n im SCARED tt i wun recover ohh gosh...i can almost say i hate myself...almost
Actually, b4 even signing up fer OLC i kinda regretted n felt SIAN cos my passion fer ODAC has sorta burned out. I told myself i'll juz go OLC part1 1st cos ive alr paid 30bucks n yea i'll juz try it out. After preparin EVERYTHIN includin clothes, making the tent pegs, gathering lots of twigs n leaves, learning orienteering n practicing all my knots...i found out tt i couldnt go fer e camp. Wow...how ironic initially i regretted signing up fer OLC but now...when i WANT to go camp i cant. damnnit all man i feel super down n out now n im seriously emo
can u actually picture an emo me? i cant. juz leave me alone...bye.
